All i want, is to be worth something. I see people like oh i hate being the second option.. ha, on not even worth that. I don't even know what i'm worth anymore. In fact i do, nothing. i'm not a second or third option, its more.. hey haven't seen you in ages meet me! but translates to hi everyone i knows busy meet me. I know for definite it's what people think, people don't realize how easily i can read them, and tell when they're lying. I just choose to ignore it because its the easiest option. I actually wonder if people would notice if i just walked away; mint first day of 2013. i'm just the annoying friend with too many insecurities for people to pick at and constantly put me down for even if they don't mean to purposely. Those 'jokes' really f***ing annoy me. i can take jokes. But not when you do it ALL THE f***ING TIME.