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Fedex

Why can't Fedex deliver my f***ing package. I'm so tired of these people. Every time something I order from amazon is delivered to me through them, something always happens. This time my package has been in this city for like 3 days, but have they bothered to take it to my house? No. NO, they have not. These idiots need to get their s*** together. My life is already a f***ing disaster, I don't need these people screwing with me too.
You know, it's stuff like this that really makes me want to just run away and die. I do not like wasting time, and I do not like stupid people. Fedex is basically a bunch of stupid people who like to waste time. And this is just Fedex, there are a lot of other things that are pissing me off right now too. I don't what the f*** is wrong with my firefox and my youtube but they keep crashing. I'm one of those people who are on the internet 24/7 so when something f***s up my internet I get mad. I don't know if the firefox people are having technical difficulties or if time warner cable is going nuts-All I know is that I would like a stable internet connection. Now those people ain't the only ones who are f***ing up my life. My parents need to f*** OFF I am f***ing tired of those nasty little s***heads always bothering me with random crap. The adults from school are stupid time-wasting people too. I honestly do not believe that I learned anything real at my last school-those people don't know how to teach anything. And its not just that they don't teach, they give us craploads of work to do to. During the school year, and during the summer two. I have to do that f***ing summer reading s*** in like two days…My goodness-Can't these people realize that we have better things to do than read some crappy book and fill out those stupid packets, write those stupid essays, create those stupid journals-That is another thing. They gave us a f***ing project to do for the summer. Damn it, when are these FOOLISH HUMANS GOING TO GIVE ME A BREAK. I AM SICK OF WASTING MY TIME DOING, HARD AND MEANINGLESS WORK ALL THE TIME. You see, I want to run away because I am f***ing tired of this s***. I'm tired of this stupidity, this wasting of my youth, these humans, their laws, their ways, their EVERYTHING! I'm tired of people. I want to get as far away from human society as possible. They're f***ing disappointments. And for the most part, they're evil and negative. I do not need all of this s*** poisoning my spirit, What I need is to get away. These people are slowly turning me into the person that I said I would never be. I already have lost my feelings, my emotions, my spirit, my hopes, my dreams, and I am about to lose whatever little mercy I posses. Once I lose that I can finally leave. I'm tired of being here. Even the dog hates me. I need to go and find people that actually respect and appreciate me, because I'm just bored and depressed. You see, I do not like the people that I am forced to interact with on a daily basis, I do not like the stuff and the situations that are happening here, and I really don't like the future that awaits me in this dead-end town. I am really tired of pretending that I am happy and OK with all of this. I'm not. Here is the reality, when I'm home, all I am is bored and annoyed, but when I'm at school, all I am is stressed and depressed. After going through 8+ years of school, I honestly think I've had enough of that s***. Now when I'm at home, I am bored because there is a lot to do besides play video games and surf the web, and I'm always on edge because my dad keeps bothering me with a bunch of health and exercise s***, but that annoys me because I have a fetish for fat people and I really hate skinny people, and my dog is always trying to kill me and that annoys me because I like animals and the fact that he tries to kill me all the time isn't good because it makes me want to kill him too, and I don't want to do that because I like animals but he's just such a f***ing bitch that I just throw him outside and ignore him but then someone always brings him back inside and its just a horrible cycle. I hate dogs, I really hate dogs. I'm more of a cat person, but at this point I'm beginning to become tired of everything and that includes animals. I'm basically turning into the person I said I'd never be because of all of this bad stuff that keeps happening and I want to run away before I finally finish turning into a crazy villain dude or something. I just want to rest from all of this s***. Oh wait a minute-what rest? I can't even sleep at night. My head is always full of negative thoughts about humanity and society, and then I try to get those thoughts out of my head, and then I remember the days when I was still a happy little kid, and then I almost start crying because those days are gone forever and it's probably too late for me to create any more happy moments after all of the things that have happened. Then after remembering those painful memories I sometimes fall asleep, but when I do I am plagued with these horrible nightmares that seen so damn real and then go through those awful dreams and then I wake up, knowing that another day of my life has been wasted doing meaningless things. Also, I'm getting really getting anxious because when July starts I'm going to have to all of that summer reading s***, and you know how I feel about the summer reading. There is so much that is pissing me off about this world…At this point the only thing I need is for the relationship between my mother and me to go downhill, so she won't miss me when I leave. I seriously need to get out of here. Or maybe I'll into some sort of accident and I'll die. I don't know. All I know is that I am so done with this place and these people.

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Reality

The f***ing s***heads need to get OFF MY CASE ALREADY. I am not going to any f***ing pool to swim BECAUSE I f***ING HATE WATER AND I DON'T LIKE EXERCISE. PE's gonna be Hell for me in High School. Maybe I should run away just because of that. You see, I have a sexual fetish for fat people and I'm not that big a fan of hard muscle. I hate hard things. My heart's already a rock-I don't need these many f***ing stone's in my life. These awful parents of mine are relentless though. Can't wait for them to just die or something. If my mother dies in the operation, I'm gonna f***ing leave. No doubt about it. I can't stand the rest of my family, and I have a hatred for human society. I'd feel sorry for my friends though, but I need to worry about my needs for once. I'm not happy now, and I CERTAINLY will not be happy if this situation gets any worse. High School…even if I do go, something will probably happen during freshman year that will just make me want to run away AGAIN. Last year I almost killed myself though. Maybe I should have. Who knows. A lot of stuff happened last year that just destroyed me emotionally and spiritually. I don't know whose shoulder I can lean on because know I don't have the ability to trust. I can't say what I feel like, because I can't even feel things on an emotional level. All I know is that this whole mess is not me. I'm sick of this s***. I need to find a place where I am actually needed, I want to be somewhere were people want me and accept me, BUT WHERE I FEEL HAPPY TOO. I have friends who do want me and accept me, but at what cost? To stay and suffer with my friends at that school…We are no better than a bunch of dogs with an abusive master! Eventually dogs run away. At least smart ones do…The foolish ones are the ones who stay to the bitter end. To be so foolish though, I would need the illusion of an emotion that I have never truly felt so I don't feel inclined to stay here. I need to just…I don't know. All I know is that I am USELESS here. I've been society's pawn for a f***ing long time, but I don't consider myself capable of this act anymore. I'm not an actor. I don't care about my grades-a 90 doesn't make me feel better than a 30 on a test. I honestly do not believe in these rules at all-if someone is insulting or harassing me IN ANY way, I believe that I have the right to give them what they're asking for. Believe me, I am not going to put up WITH ANY KIND OF s*** if DO return to school. I'm so tired of these humans. You don't know HOW much I want to go live in a place like Wonderland or something! I AM BEYOND THIS NONSENSE. I AM NOT WASTING MY TIME HERE WITH THIS f***ING s*** THAT I DON'T EVEN BELIEVE IN. I DON'T BELIEVE IN THIS! I NEVER HAVE AND I PROMISE, I NEVER f***ING WILL. I can see through all of these illusions. I am not blind anymore. I did try seeing the bright side, but it's not even real. I am beyond this. I KNOW I have better things to do than this s***. I do believe that I have a purpose, and I KNOW that that purpose is NOT siting in a desk doing science and algebra. I believe in magic. I believe in an 'other' world that most people are too blind to see. I'm tired of being surrounded by IDIOTS! THAT IS WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE! IDIOTS! I've had quite enough of the close minded fools-AND HOW DARE THEY PRETEND THAT THEY ARE SO MUCH MORE THAN WHAT THEY ARE! Have you ever heard of the IB learner profile? Look it up. Read about it. These people here are the complete opposite of the IB learner profile, so I think that it is unreasonable for them to try and force that s*** unto us. You know, YOU CAN LEAD A HORSE TO WATER BUT YOU CAN'T MAKE IT DRINK. THESE PEOPLE CAN'T MAKE ME DRINK THIS f***ING URINE-THATS WHAT IT IS——-URINE! I am tired of eating s*** and drinking piss. When am I going to find something that's actually real and true? I'm tired of lies. I have been lied to by so many people that I can't really distinguish a lie from the truth, AND THAT SCARES ME. I don't want to be like these horrible people, that gave into society's will. I would sooner defy it. I would sooner defy society than myself. If I could, I would defy gravity too. But that apparently requires a broom and I don't really know where mine is. Anyway, the point is, I don't want to do this s***. I have my own agenda. I have my own to-do list, and this s*** isn't on there.
MY to-do list is something that I ain't gonna tell to NOBODY. I have the right to keep things to myself, don't I? Oh my goodness…What kind of drug was this 'God' on when he made me? I am a broken human being. I have the inability to FEEL, but apparently everyone else can. Emotions? Please. I have none. I may as well be just some animal or something…at least then I would actually be happy-because everything I would be doing would be to actually survive. I wouldn't be sitting around here wasting time on this stuff that just frustrates me and makes me life a living HELL. Why should I bother controlling myself anymore? If I don't want to do something…I don't think I'm going to do it. I'm not anyone's slave…I should go into the wilds. Maybe hide behind the waterfall…Kill myself with a rock. Or maybe, go in there, but with my books and some food, so that I can entertain myself a little bit before I die. Seriously, I don't feel like I was born into the right body. Maybe if that whole reincarnation s*** is true, I might actually become something that I actually want to be. This pretty little face is worthless to me if it is not free. And I'm not…I don't feel like I belong to myself. I wouldn't care if I died in my sleep, at least that way I would get out of this mess. I feel like I'm in the Hunger Games or something, but I don't want to try! I don't wanna kill nobody! That's another thing-what most people call 'success' is gained by crushing the hopes and dreams of another, and I'm not going to do that because I can't hope,, and all the dreams I get at night are nightmares. Honestly, I want my prince charming to come and save me. I'm a guy but I still want my prince charming to come and find me. I'm f***ing gay, and proud of it. I want my prince to come and take me away to his castle so we can just be happy and live our happily ever after. I want the story of my life to either get to the f***ing plot already, or for it to just end. Enough of this awful drama! I'm just not up to it. Society will have no trouble replacing me. They can find themselves another f***ing slave…I want to prioritize MY needs for once…I'm so sick of this s***...If I DO go to high school, I know that I'll never feel happy. Before I leave for the trip in which I plan to run away in, I'm going to say good-bye to three total people:
The dog
One of my friends
And this horse I know
That's it. After I say good-bye to them…SEE-YA! AND I WOULDN'T WANNA f***ING BE YA! I'm tired of all the drama these humans keep putting into my life. I want to get to the f***ing point already…I'm tired of pretending that I'm actually OK with all of this…Maybe I'll give high school a chance…But no more than one. I don't want to hurt myself anymore. The best thing would be to run away during this summer though, and skip all of the hurt and pain. Because you know what? As I wrote those essays and did those math problems, it PAINED me that I was wasting time on them than ob what was actually real. If I had emotions, I bet I would be crying right now, but I stopped being able to cry A LONG time ago. Why am I such a s***?
Anyway, there's more stuff influencing my decision. I recently got this tarot card reading about this whole situation, and you know what it said? It said that I would do one of two things: go into yet ANOTHER illusion, or create a grave mistake. This could go both ways though. I am SO confused. I wish that I had some guidance…Not my parents though. They're too dumb. I wish I had a brother or something that I could talk to and share my feelings with. I wish that I had a REAL shoulder to cry on. I wish that my prince charming was here. What's taking him so DAMN long? I might be only 13 but I have issues too! I want someone to help me…But I can't even trust…I've lost that ability…I have been destroyed…I'm broken…But all of the pieces are gone now…Nobody ever picked them up…I'm tired…I'm bored…I'm in pain…I have seen through all of these illusions…I'm glad I did though. To live such a lie…No. Just NO. I don't think so. You know what I think would describe me, that scene in Disney's Cinderella where Cinderella was all dressed up and ready to go to the ball but those two bitches tore up her dress and her hopes. I'm about to run into the garden…I need a fairy godmother at this point. The things that the fairies have seen…Oh the poor creatures…Oh well. I'm not the fairy godmother, I f***ing Cinderella. But I am tired of cleaning up all of this s***. I honestly feel sorry for the people I would leave behind but…Someday…I'll find the open door…and walk through it…and follow the road into the woods…and never come out. I'm not as foolish as Cinderella though. I would NEVER have left the prince in the middle of the night. Who would do that? When I find my prince charming, I'm not going to abandon him. You know, once I heard a quote:
"Die as a hero or live to become a villain"
I'm not going to be a villain. I honestly believe I should just take my leave, and die. Wherever I end up, whether it is hell or heaven…at least I would not be here. I don't really want to die though, I just want to live somewhere where I feel GOOD, and here I don't…My future…Its not bright. Not to me…To me its dark. And as time goes on, I see it getting darker and darker. What light at the end of the tunnel? This is nothing but an endless cave! This isn't me…I was meant for this stuff. I'm tired of pretending that I am.

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Hello,

Go to high school next year, or run away into the wilderness and wait for mother nature to finish me off?
That is the question. I honestly do not believe that school can teach me anything that I actually want to know, and that it is a complete waste of my time. When it comes to the stuff that I'm into, numbers and science are useless. I do not believe that I have learned anything of value at school except for the fact that humans are evil, especially children. You heterosexuals need to f***ing use a condom because children are f***ing ruining my life. I can't stand them. If I do decide that I'll go to high school, if someone pisses me off-I WILL SEND THEM STRAIGHT TO HELL. Its not that hard people. I am so happy that I'm not straight because if I ever helped bring a human child into this world you don't know how pissed off I would be. Also, in the wilderness, I don't have to deal with humans. I hate humans. You people should burn in hell. I'm f***ing serious. I am SO tired of everyone's s***. I hate my parents who think own me, the school administrators who think they can figure out my life for me, and the children who torment me. I actually do have a little group of friends, but out of those few children I really only trust one or two. If I do leave, I might actually feel sorry for them because they actually liked me, and I liked them, but if these humans get on my nerves-I'm not gonna turn into the next Osama bin Ladden, I'm just gonna leave. You don't want me here, fine. I have got A LOT of stuff to do. And summer readings are not in my plans. These f***ing idiots can't pick out a goof book. Even when they do, its not like I actually want to read it. I want to read about stuff that I care about, not the stuff that they care about-Who do these people think I am? Do they think I'm their slave? Because that's how I'm feeling right now. I actually do enjoy study and research, BUT ONLY IF ITS ON SOMETHING INTERESTING AND I DON'T HAVE ANYBODY EXPECTING STUFF FROM ME. I may be researching X subject that interests me, but I'm not giving you an essay about it!!!! You want to learn this stuff-go find the information on your own. Handing out information is not my job. That's another thing, a job? Please. I do not really want a job. I am tired of being society's slave. If I do finish high school, I'm probably just gonna run away then instead. I am not wasting four more years of my life in college. That isn't going to happen. I KNOW that there is more to life than wasting your childhood at school and then becoming a slave as an adult. I used to want love, but I am wiser than that. That emotion leads to nothing but heartache, of which I have had enough. Too many things have happened to me for me to just go along with all of this s***! Honestly, the only things keeping my ass in this house are the fact that my friends actually want me to go to high school with them, my parents have been abandoned too many times already and if I left they would just die, and the fact that I'm basically addicted to Final Fantasy XI. I like that game. I also draw too. I'm also kind of smart. And also wise. I'm wise enough to see that society will one day collapse on itself, and I don't want to be around when that happens. I will HOPEFULLY be dead by then, or in some woods reading one of my books on a subject that I like. I also REALLY hate the idea of religion. Its too blinding for my taste. Too many problems have been caused by it. Manifest Destiny, in which the Americans completely took the western lands from the Native Americans was the belief that it was the American's GOD GIVEN RIGHT TO SPREAD DEMOCRACY. Is there no end to the arrogance of humans? To come up with such an idea…Oh please, SHOOT ME. I can't believe these people. I don't really consider myself to be much better than them though. I have done things that I am not proud off, which I will most likely post here later. Anyway, I'm just mad at the humans because of, well, EVERYTHING. If I had the choice of saving the life of a human or animal's, I would save the animal. I don't believe that the humans deserve my anything anymore. I would sooner trust a wild lion than a human. At least there not as f***ed up as humans are. I'm so tired of this s***.
Anyway, here are the two main things that will influence my decision:
1.) My mother's getting a surgery that has a chance of killing her and if she goes, I go to. I hate the rest of my family, except for the dog.
2.) My friends. I have SOME trust in them. They did make my life somewhat better, but I am not sure of it would be OK for me to leave them, or to stay and ATTEMPT to keep them happy.
I am very unsure right now. All I know is that I don't have many reasons to stay in this place where I do not feel good. The reflection that I see in the mirror sometimes is not even me, it is what society is FORCING upon me. Should I be their slave for just a little longer, or should I disappear as soon as I can. That is the question. Thank you for reading this.

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