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until our next rocket launch

By now you're probably dissapointed that I never bothered to call you. You're probably thinking to yourself that I don't care about you, that I never even considered you a friend or maybe I am giving myself too much credit and you probably could care less If I called you or not.
But I care.... believe me I care. In fact, I care too much and I realize that my expectations of what could have been are hopeless. I see your facebook pics, and how you have spent your time since we last saw each other. I see that you've become a popular person, you holding red cups around posing with random people, still sporting that sweet smile that took my breath away every time I was lucky enough to see it. I am really happy that you have broken out of your shell and you now lead that life you always wanted. I haven't been so lucky to be honest, I am still sort of socially awkward and is in this inferiority complex that I fail to muster the courage to call you. I mean, I was so ecstatic when we regained touch through facebook last month. It was such a great feeling reading that message from you, and remembering all the amazing moments we shared. Maybe they were not that special to you, since they were brief but I must confess that they meant the world to me. It didn't matter if it was our usual random conversations we had while waiting for class to be over, or that small hug you used to give me when we said good bye. They were special, and I realize that our worlds are too different for us to share those moments again. And I may be a fool to hold on to such silly memories. but I will always cherish them and hold them deep within me, with the hope that one day our worlds can become one again.

CJP

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CJP204 ranted 7 years, 5 months ago.
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anonymous commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

My Dear CJP, if you like a girl this much, let the girl know!!! Unless she's not "the one". Are you waiting for a more "qualified" or "perfect guy" to come and take her away??? Are you going to prove your love for her by waiting by the sidelines and letting time past you by until the day when it's too late and you'll wonder to yourself, what could have happened if you actually tried?

A girl can be in love with guy A and doesn't care about guy B, but things will seem like the total opposite. Take me as an example. I'm always a deer caught in the headlight when I see the guy I like so I'm either speechless when the guy talks to me or I'm not as sociable. As a result, I never get to know the guy I actually like. The guy that I like usually assumes that I'm not interested in him and I only get approached by the guys I'm not interested in. =(

So, what happens behind the scene that no one knows about? Since the guy I liked didn't call me or bothered to try hard enough to show his feelings for me, I assume he doesn't care enough so I just move on with my life. If I was looking to have a normal family and settle down, I would do something about it but since relationship's not my top priority, I let it past me by. For my situation, I need a thoughtful guy that I can simply be happy with, without all the guessing game. I don't have the time to deal with any kind of rocky relationships. As a result, I just really miss the guy once in a while. When I past by places that I used to see him or listen to certain songs, the image of him just comes up and I would miss him. I'm just here feeling sentimental by myself because the guy who liked me didn't show he liked me enough. To me if I'm really that special one to the guy, he'll get out of his shell and do something about it! Maybe that lucky girl is like me!!!

I don't know you and your whole situation. This is just food for thought....Best of luck to you. Don't feel too sad about it. Maybe she's feeling the same way as you even though she seemed to have moved on without you.

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Mmonkey commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

people took different routes and we shall cherish what we got out from that decision. sometimes it's good to zoom out a bit, we see a different world :) thumbs up

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I_Agree commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

Umm, this was labeled as "unrequited love." Imagine being in love with this girl, but never doing anything about it? I don't think you'd get anything to cherish if you decide never to do anything about the girl you love. I say the OP should at least try to get a date with her or something. There's no use in just sitting back and never even trying to reach out to her once.

I could understand if it was a breakup, but this sounds like they never even dated.

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Mmonkey commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

emotional is never a good thing

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Arena commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

Awww. You poor thing....I just gave you one karma point for actively commenting on people posts.

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Mmonkey commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

lol...it's okay..i can feel the beta community is rejecting my ideas/thoughts

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Arena commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

No, trust me. I think you just don't understand the rant post thoroughly enough. =)

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Mmonkey commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

that's so true, i'm not use to read stuff this long, usually the stuff i read is mad short and comments were mad short too.

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anonymous commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

I think there's something in my eye. Damn dust is flying all over the room.

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Belinda commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

I also had something in my eye, and it wasn't dust.

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Mmonkey commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

well...it's raining here

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Brandaris commented on this rant 7 years, 4 months ago.

Déjà vu.

But i am keeping moderate contact with her.

Succes CJP, with the choice you make.

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Belinda commented on this rant 7 years, 5 months ago.

wow, it's beautiful what you feel for this person but I agree with I_Agree, if you love her then take a chance and express to her the same feelings you just wrote. It is better than always wondering what could have been, but then again maybe it is more complicated than that. Good luck, I just really hope she gets to hear these words and feelings. It would be a shame if she didn't.

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rantfooster commented on this rant 7 years, 4 months ago.

Dude ... this is simple and easy to do. You can do it. Simply send her a private FB message and say it would be nice to see her again and suggest grabbing some Starbucks. It's not even "a date". No pressure. It's just 2 friends hanging out. Don't get emotional or wimpy with her there, just enjoy the conversation. At the end, say "we gotta do this again" or "we should grab lunch sometime". When she agrees, exchange cell #'s at that time. The next day send her a simple text message ... "it was nice seeing you yesterday". About 5 days after that, send her another text like ... "just popping in to say hi" or go to her Facebook wall and find something recent and either comment or click the "LIKE" button. This keeps you in her head. Then a few days after that, give her a call and see if she can meet you for lunch. That may be a little hard for you, but suck it up. Let her pick the day and you make yourself available. Remember, the more you do it the easier it becomes and rejection is nothing to be afraid of ... it only makes you stronger. GOOD LUCK and let us know what happens.

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anonymous commented on this rant 7 years, 4 months ago.

Great advice! Remember to ask her how she feels about you too! Communication is very important.

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anonymous commented on this rant 7 years, 4 months ago.

Hi cjp204 i don,t no what life do you want to go;if you want to go for life very sad. O to go for life very happy; you have to take a decicion be man for one time in your life because the life is running.