Feeling like a homeless puppy

I'm nowhere in life right now even though I had a huge advantage to be somewhere by now. Right now, I'm NOTHING! I'm still repeating the same old steps I've been taking since the time I found out I can accomplish things that I go after.

I was lucky that I found out about the Honors program right before my freshman year in high school, while I was still a 2.0 ESL student who knew absolutely NOTHING about school. Opportunity found me. I took the chance and ran with it. I still had no concept of what college was but managed to get myself into the UC system for the medical program I was trying to pursue. I was very impressed when I got the acceptance letter from my school of choice but I just hid it in my closet like a treasure I would never touch again.

I had a head start in college because of my grades, leadership involvement, awards, work experiences and other things I was involved with in high school, plus I had a very touching and impressive story to tell for my interviews. Things always went in my favor even when I changed my major. I landed a job as a financial advisor during my sophmore year in college right after I switched from the medical field to the business field. I worked full-time and went to school full-time and had a great boyfriend that supported me in everything I did. My picky and critical side had to get in the way! Even though I had everything, I wanted more....I'm the type that LOVES pursuing big things so as always, I dropped the financial advisor job and attempted to get something better. Eventually I wasn't serious about my school or my career anymore. I wanted to dedicate my time to build my own business. Things didn't go as planned and it took a long time to make things happen.

Now, I have what I always dreamed of but it's still going to take time for things to happen. What I realized? I could be in a corporation at some high level position right now if I continued dedicating myself to pursuing a career on the side. I know it's not too late but I just regret being so critical and leaving so many things and people out of my life!

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anonymous ranted 8 years, 11 months ago.
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elle commented on this rant 8 years, 11 months ago.

Simply, being an FA wouldn't suffice and you'd always demand more. You could be in a corporation but reality is, it wouldn't be worth your time to do that or pursue its path. I think you already know this which is why you've decided to stop. Like they say, on to bigger and better things. Don't worry though cause you're not alone in feeling lost or in my case, an entrenched rut I can't get out of.

Jasper commented on this rant 8 years, 11 months ago.

Burning bridges always comes back to bite you in the ass.