I've never experience a real relationship, and i know i don't need guy to make me happy but i kinda want one, i want a guy to be there for me and with me through everything, i want to feel loved, i have many great friends but lately I've been feeling so lonely and i don't know what to do. Im only freshman and i know I'm too young, but i want to get to know someone so good, know every little thing about them, what they hate, what they love. i want to know this person so well and we don't even have to date but i want someone to be there for me and cuddle with me and do fun things with me. Ive been feeling really bad about myself lately cause theres this one guy I've liked for a long time and i had the courage to talk to him and started snap chatting and talking and he would tell his friends I'm cute and all that stuff and he would call me pretty and everything was going well, but this girl came out of nowhere (a friend actually) she knew i liked him and she went after him and now they talk more and see each other at school a lot, and ever since she came in everyhing changed, every time i look in the mirror i feel like so so ugly, i feel like i can't do anything, i don't know why nothing ever works out for me. i feel so insecure and i hate everything about myself, i come home and cry because i just feel so ugly and no one understands me, my self esteem is so low and idk how to raise it up. I've been getting distracted and finals week is coming, i haven't been eating good lately and i haven't really been doing good lately. i cry at school and i just hate feeling like this i wan it to all go away cause i know for sure he's going to pick her over me . cause I'm always left out, i feel so worthless and i feel like no one will ever love me.