Sooooooo i'm BACK. If anyone reading this has seen my previous blogs, I dumped the f*cker who was making me feel like s***, my parents paid off my debt and i'm back home in small townville, jobless, clueless and shagging a new c*nt! who may of gotten me preggers but i can't be sure yet. I am a hopeless woman with no self respect no energy for happiness and no time for goals. My mum has cancer. my dad had a heartattack. I just go out all the time, end up drinking and crying, and sleeping with this guy who doesnt like me, doesn't wanna sleep with me, but just does it cos i throw myself at him. Its a pattern of self destruction and degregation from which i have no desire to lift myself out of. I am intelligent but do not have the ability to apply myself. I am concerned I may be autistic or suffering from some sort of mental illness which makes my life the constant roller coaster it is. I feel sorry for every c*** in my world. From people i screw over at work, to men I screw, either sexually or emotionally, to my friends and family who are forced to pick up my bulls*** when i walk away from it. I AM A c***.