So I'm in a relationship with a guy who completely drives me crazy to the point it pisses me off. I've tried to leave a few times but he wouldn't let me. He's never physically hurt me and he cries more than I do. I feel mentally drained and it exhausts me. I can't say that I have no feelings for him cause I do but, it's no longer at the same level as I did before. I find his lack of stability makes me have a lack of patience. Due to a years worth of explanation I have lost my apartment, pit bull, bearded dragon, t.v., game systems, over 100 movies, and my car in this relationship. Only reason why I've lasted this long (other than the fact past attempts failed) is cause I have hope things will get better. But the actual real reason I wanted to rant was cause he keeps me up till like 3 am from his up and down and turning on lights. Only reason I don't blow up on him is cause I don't wanna wake his dad. Yeah past events has brought me to living with his dad. Just as I was writing this, he began his whining. He whines more than my youngest sister. He's inconsiderate 75% of time, whines and grips every single day (no exaggeration), and yet why does my dumb self stay? I think it's 80% pity and 20% idk. I do know that I am complaining a lot about this but I literally have no other way to express these feelings. My only friend who is trustworthy would turn around and tell him and I've tried telling him how I feel about it but it brings about a fight that we've had so many times already that I just have no energy nor interest in repeating.